If I could turn back time
Today is day 8 of #blogtober20 and I’m still here and totally winging it!
Anyway, the prompt is ’If I could turn back time’!
I don’t have many regrets in life as I totally believe in timing and the decisions we make always lead to what was meant to be as life is mapped out for us, ‘If I could turn back time’ is one I had to really think about.
Also, I am quite an outspoken person and have always spoken by mind where it matters anyway so, I don’t have any regrets there.
My mum used to always say ’What will be will be!’
However, that doesn’t mean I am in denial about a few silly mistakes or situations I got myself into.
One regret I have is falling into the playground politics trap.
When my eldest first started school I was busy working and determined not to be part of the notorious mothers meetings on the dreaded school run.
However, being the nice person that I am, I slowly fell into the dark side.
Listening to peoples problems in the beginning.
Then, the next thing i’m being bitched about behind my back and I’m in trouble for stuff like being nice to the wrong people!
Turns out those mums I was being none judgmental towards and being nice to were absolute neurotic control freaks fishing for their next victims! ME!!
I honestly think they see me coming me coming.
It has become a bit of a running joke amongst my nearest and dearest.
I have hopefully learnt my lesson and I have this amazing radar these days that spots them a mile off!
Following on from the playground politics, I do have some regrets not investing in the right people in my personal life.
I have made some lovely friends over the years and I do regret not resolving silly fall outs and misunderstandings.
Of course, it’s all part of growing up which reminds me of another saying my mum used to say,
’Youth is wasted on the young’ How true!
The other niggle I have is not putting myself first enough and being too generous at times.
When I think back to the times I maybe wasted my already pushed resources to its limit for the wrong people, it does make me slightly shudder.
I could have saved and prepared better for my future not on other peoples.
Don’t get me wrong, I love helping people out, especially those in need.
However, when others have seen how generous I could be they wanted a piece of my generosity pie, ate the pie and moved on to never see them again!
As always I would love to hear your thoughts,
Lot’s of love,